December 2011
49 posts
A study in vanity.
I’d like to make something clear.
I’m slender. Yes. But that does not make me any less of a “real woman” than someone who is average sized. My weight does not define me, in the same way I feel it shouldn’t define someone who is heavier.
I find it incredibly unfair when someone says “I just hate skinny people like you. You can eat anything you want and never...
I’m beginning to realize that I’m terrified of falling in love again. Not because I’m worried I’ll get hurt, or that I’m not ready for it. But because that means that eventually, I’ll have to choose. Maybe, just maybe though…it will choose me. Let’s hope for that, yes?
“My love has concrete feet. My love’s an iron ball. Wrapped around...
There are times now. Moments. Brief, breath-catching, snippets of my night. When I feel lonely.
My freedom, and independence is lovely. It is. And meeting new people. And having that “shiny new” feeling of excitement and curiosity. It’s all very nice.
But.
Still.
It’s also very nice to sleep next to someone. To have a lap to stretch my legs over when I watch TV. To talk...
Ride 'Em Cowboy
animalsbeingdicks:
The Johnson family was thrilled when Brad opened his very own rodeo Corgi!
kayleeoh:
Finally
Things are evening out, settling in, relaxing, and allowing me to breathe. Despite the hectic holidays, I’m finding myself quite a bit more centered than usual. Thank god.
It was a real struggle for a a bit. My shoulder is still sore from learning to move and stretch without the sling on. My house is still a disaster because I just can’t bring myself to do the dishes but I’m...
Rewind...update
-Power back on -Dad still upset over the bills situation -Cat returned (really, that’s the major thing that makes me a little more ok today) -Well placed phone call last night -Booze and the emergency cigarette helped -I have to get motivated to keep up with my shit -Which means -I can’t do things I really want to do (ie: Bout in Indiana this weekend) -I have to start saving...
What doesn't kill you...well, yeah.
-power shut off
-dad furious over credit card bill
-parents call me a disappointment for not keeping up with bills
-missing cat
-still don’t get paid for a week
-half a tank of gas until then
-in a sling and off skates for at least 4 more weeks
-feeling alone and like I’ll never climb out of this
-hating myself for being a failure
-car wreck that was my fault
-friendship...
Just got inexplicably emotional. Over a movie. A stupid stupid movie.
Hart. Get your shit together and stop being a crazy cat lady! Or drink something stronger than ginger ale. Jeez.
Wanna Know How Pathetic I Am?
I had to go to practice tonight to get my USARS form signed. It made me so sad that I came home. Put on my skates, and am sitting here watching TV. God, how depressing is that? Are you suuuuuure you don’t wanna hang out with a downer like me?
Because you can’t admit you fucked up, you put my integrity in question. Thanks. I knew there was a reason we weren’t friends. Things continue to get better. **shakes head denoting that the opposite is true**
